BH thanks for stopping by. Rest assured I am cautious, but putting my faith in God. For accuracy, my H didn't come and go many times (twice). The difference now is that we have God on our side.
I don't recall posting that I was confident with his return. I hope I didn't portray that, but if I did it wasn't correct. My h was trying, I was checked out so I knew in my heart he would leave again in 2010. I gave him NO reason to stay. I do recall posting that reconciling is rough, but today BH we are different people and it's as if the past has been wiped clean.
God wiped the slate clean and for each of us it's as if God gave us a DO OVER. Nothing in life is guaranteed except death and taxes. God gave me an inner strength and love that I have never experienced before. He healed me BH from all my hurts, anger, resentment, pain. I am full of life now.
If my H walked out today BH it would be ok. Not that I want that to happen which I am confident it won't now, but I have so much love inside me today for God that it would not matter. God is here for me and that is all that matters.
I know that many probably will not understand my positioning unless you have been touched with the Holy Spirit with such depth, but when you are lead spiritually and not by your flesh and emotions nothing can tear you down or break that love.
It's hard for me to describe this new found love unless you experience it. Imagine going through every sec, min, hour, day, week, month, year with a smile on your face. That is really the best explaination I can give at the moment of how I feel inside. On fire for God!
God Bless!
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"