Mission 25. I Really Mean it this time>

[ninelives]

Wow another holiday. Got to admit, these are so tough and really took them for granted when we were married. Its so funny, now that we are separated, you would do almost anything to experience them together again. We celebrated 15 of them before and did the token things but boy, I would love one more chance to show her how much I really did apprecitate her as the mother of OUR children.

Its always the same old story, you dont know what you got till its gone. Stupid humans, why do we have to be hit over the head with this before it sinks in.

I dropped off my kids at her place along with the gifts they ( I) got for her. Like I said, flowers and bulbs of flowers etc.

AT home right now alone and feeling empty. Wish I didnt crack up my bike on Thursday as I would love to go for a ride right now.

Its not that i couldnt, probably a good idea that I dont and as one never rides their bike when emotions are bad and also I dont want the crack in the ferring to get worse.

MOre house work and garden work to do anyway now that I think about it.

Next tough day I think will be May 18th ( Alice Cooper concert) and then May 28 and May 30th our birthdays that we always celebrated together.

I will really try and be out of town for thesed days as they fall on the weekend, well hers does anyway.

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