I remember those uncomfortable days of living in the same house while STBX was waiting to move into her appt. She was here, but not here at all. I know you must feel lost right now and think you don't deserve to not even know where you are going to live. I can't promise you that it's going to get better, because we have no idea what is around the next corner. All I can say is that you have had the strength before and you will have it again. And, no, you don't deserve this. You truly don't.