I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

Mishka, you are stronger than me.

I may be misreading the email. She may be asking if she can just sign it May 31 -- same day as the court case. That way she doesn't have to miss more time from her precious job. That would make sense. Nothing is more important than her job.

I responded to the email: "What do you mean? You can go to (my L's) office and sign the papers. He just wants you to call ahead so the papers are ready.

I guess I'll wait to see how she responds.

I was out tonight with my church group. Only six of us showed up, but church 31 was one of them.

I am really, really infatuated with her. The highlight to my evening was when I was joking with another guy in the group about being too old to be in a 20s-30s singles group. She said she didn't know I was in my 40s. I told her I was 10 years older than her. She graduated high school in 1997. I graduated in 1987.

I was psyched she thought I was in my 30s.

Another point in the night, stuff about the D came up and she said she couldn't tell if I was excited or upset about it and I said I was both.

I really hope I have the courage to ask her out when this is over. And I really hope she says yes.

I had a two hour talk with my aunt today. I went over everything.