You are just tired. You are FAR from detached. Most of your posts are about her and what you think will happen to her or what you think she thinks/feels/does and you put a negative spin (critical) on most all of it. Instead of talking about HER diet or HER exercise programs, which you only have some knowledge of, why not talk about what YOU are doing to get healthy? Do NOT project negatives onto her activities...(why even comment on them?)...

That's NOT helping you emotionally and it hurts your R with her...so why keep doing it? You are tearing her down to make yourself feel or look better but it does NOT happen that way. You just feel worse and the R deteriorates even more...And it sounds like the old you, right? Stop backsliding. Forgive yourself, forgive her, and DETACH...(that won't happen over night but you have to start somewhere and right now I'd say DETACH and put a STOP SIGN in your mind when the thought of OM comes into your head. STOP GOING THERE....

Focus on you and what you CAN control, which is only you. What are the 180's you are doing? The GAL activities???


M: 57 H: 60
M: 35 yrs
S30,D28,D19
H off to Alaska 2006
Recon 7/07- 8/08
*2016*
X = "ALASKA 2.0"
GROUND HOG DAY
I File D 10/16
OW
DIV 2/26/2018
X marries OW 5/2016

= CLOSURE 4 ME
Embrace the Change