Another New Day 3

[islander]

I agree with you on wearing the ring. I just wantedto try something different, but i am married. I will wear my ring until that is no longer true.

W just sent me another text a few minilutes ago, asking if I was at home tonight with my D. I did not respond to that either.

I have pursued my W for the last 7 months, and look were it has got me. Nowhere, really quick, or slow depending how you look at it. I am done pursuing.

Like sandi or 25 said, we feel the devasting loss as a LBS, but what loss has the WAS felt.???? In my case nothing, and having two men want her. Not to bad when you think about it from her perspective.

I think in my case as a LBS, I have been in my own fog, just as much as my W has. I think I have just come out of it, but I know there are still patches of fog out there. I think that I have finally learned what DB is, now I have to out in the work. I have tried it my way and gotten nowhere...hey, I am hard headed.

And actually, I had a pretty good day. I have not let her bring me down today.

My D has strep, but is feeling good. Today is the first time that I have ever taken her to the doctor. I saw the need and did wha I needed to do.

About 10 years ago when I was in college, I was a balloon artist, made pretty good money, and was pretty good at it. My D got some balloons for Easter and asked me to make her something. I got my balloons from ten years ago and started making her animals. She thinks I am the greatest right now. That is was I need to be concerned about, her and our R now.

And part of me thinks that if I completely stop pursuing my W and really GAL, I may have a CHANCE with my W. But no matter what, I am going to save myself.