The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

Hi Starsky,

I don't know why I still want to protect him. Maybe because if it "gets out" I'll feel worse. More sad.....more embarrassed....more angry.

All I know is that once I spill the beans, I can't take it back. I learned that the first time we went through this when my D17 was then just a baby. I told my my two closest girlfriends at the time. I always felt on edge around those friends when H was around. Just uncomfortable.

H is working tomorrow (probably partly true and partly not). That is my new reality. I don't believe much of what is said.

I hope YOU have a nice weekend!