Ok time for an update It has been 3 days since the relapse. Two of those days I brought her coffee. Today she made some for the both of us so no getting her some. It's no big deal though. Things are starting to get better she has been in a good mood for a few days now, and the level of playfulness between us is on the rise again. On more than one occasion she has playfully tackled me and we end up rolling on the couch or the bed like little kids. We both have fun, and I feel like these tackles are really stealth hugs. She reminds me of the little girl in the playground who has a crush on a boy so she goes and smacks him in the arm. That being said in the past she has gotten carried away and hit me harder than is called for. I have in the past just brushed it off as if to say I'm a guy. You can't hurt me. Now though as part of getting my self respect back if she crosses the line I let her know of my displeasure and how it will not be tolerated. She has taken it pretty well, apologizes and tries to be even more playful. Stand up for the little things first.....
All that being said we are taking a trip for my sisters graduation. She is coming but insisted we get separate beds at the hotel. A little disheartening but consistent seeing as we haven't slept in the same bed in months. I will hang out with my family, she will hang out with her cousins. I have to trust nothing will happen. I hope a little time apart will serve us well. Still working on my jealousy issues. That I can tell she hasn't made any moves towards that PA ever since I told her how much the thought of it bothered me. So now I have to play my part and give some trust. I know her cousins they are good people despite loving to party. I pray this weekend makes us stronger.
