If you have read my thread lately, you know that I am divorced as of Wednesday. Until two weeks before the courtdate, I was still very trepidicious. I asked God, "Is this really what you want for me/him? Is there anyother way? I believe I received my answer in short order, with a rant from XH.
I prayed to God that I got the memo ( LOL) and that I bowed to his wisdom that it was his will that I STHU and GTHO of the way.
I do feel pretty much my old self, although still on hold as far as the judge's decision re: settlement. But,
I cry every morning and every night. Not chest racking sobs, but tears of remorse and pain. I pray to God that he continues to watch over us and especially my XH, who is indeed in need of help, and to prideful to ever accept the truth.
I read in your thread that you have come to this crossroad of decision. Is standing helping or hindering? And in light of this, WHAT IS BEST FOR YOUR OWN MENTAL/PHYSICAL WELLBEING? Is sacrificing yourself going to improve W's situation or thought process? Apparently not, or she would have responded by now. I do not know you personally, but believe I speak for everyone here that you seem a thoughtful, intelligent, caring person. I could be wrong; so did Ted Bundy.
I don't think I am, though. I think you've reached that crossroad I spoke of, causing a spiritual questioning of "What do I do now?" You go on, True. One day at a time, with God in the lead. You spoke of two wifes/marriages in your life's wake. I now have three. But I have wonderful friends, wonderful children and grandchildren, and a life I'm not to awfully embarassed by to look back at.
Life's not a score board, you know. I truly don't believe that someone gets to the gates of Heaven and has to account for why he has X amount of broken marriages. God already knows.
I'm rambling, I apologize. I just sense you are feeling lost and confused about which path to follow, and I know that feeling. Let God choose.
