Day 5 of our "new sitch." We had a discussion the other night about boundaries. Specifically, physical. Like I said, I want to hug and kiss him and want things instantly back to normal, but I'm acutely aware that he said his attraction for me isn't back. I instantly want things to be back the way they were, but I know that isn't going to happen.
Basically, he said he doesn't know what to do either. At the same time we are working on our M, I am working through some past trauma. He said he didn't want to do anything to jeapordize what I'm working on and he's just now sure how to go about things. It seems he's waiting on our MC appt next Friday to see how she recommends moving forward. To me, the attraction and spark isn't going to reignite until we can have some romantic moments. During our convo Sun. night, I mentioned having a date night, but he seemed to think that was moving a bit fast. In our most recent discussion, he said he wasn't sure if sex was a good idea or not, and he wanted to ask our C, but maybe it was. He's sending confusing signals.
But for now, he's comfortable hugging & small kisses, and cuddling. I'll take it! Hopefully being close stirs something in him. He's still leaving open possibility that things won't work, and that's what scares me. I'm worried that he won't be attracted to me again. I think it's a mental thing, and once you open yourself up to the possibility, it can happen. But I don't know and I feel very powerless about where this goes.
Me 36, H 38, S 3 T 16, M 14 Bomb: 3/18/11 Not separated, in limbo