Mission 25. I Really Mean it this time>

[ninelives]

All great advice thanks so much because the anger was getting so exhausting at times.

She has made comments that makes our R almost hopeless. Things like

" You are not the man I thought you were and will never be and I am not the woman you thought I was , we are two different people , totally from two different ends of the spectrum or two people exactly the same; two scatterbrains. Crazy huh?

I could never love you again, I know that no matter what we tried"

She said that Easter weekend , then spent the night in my room with me and my son while we cuddled and spooned at times. I kissed her head, rubbed her back etc....

Its all so confusing. But we havent really talked nice to each other since.

25: I really want to be nice to her this mother's day as it is the first one since her mom passed in March and I KNOW she will be down. I also know OM will go over the top to try and make her feel better.

I thought I was working towards being through to her but in the last couple of days, I realize that I want her back more than ever and IT doesnt make sense to me. WHY do i still love her so much? I know there is the family dynamic and I want my kids to be truly happy and they want us back together soooo badly but its more than that.

I believe she is making such a huge mistake that she will regret for the rest of her life. I sometimes "Feel " her missing us as a family. Could she truly be in love with OM and believe she has a good future there?

I WILL listen to all this good advice. I PROMISE. I havent in the past and some people have given up on me on this board as a waste of time and good advice but I think the biggest epiphany I have had is that I have to FORGIVE her for real.

BTW 25: I am legally separated and we have divided all the assets and I did get a fair settlement. Actually, my lawyer could not believe that she did not touch my pension.

Thanks AGAIN for the excellent advice.

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