It's been 8 days of 100% dark now. I believe that is the longest STBX and I have even gone without contact of any kind in over 22 years.
Last night I tried to GAL and went to a local Mexican restaurant for Cinco De Mayo. I went with a female friend (only) from work and some people she knows. I was trying to meet new people. The night was just ok, but I though of STBX the whole time. I thought of all our vacations to Mexico and worse the trip she just went on to Mexico with her boss. Maybe it wasn't the best idea to go to a Mexican themed spot.
On to day 9. I am doing my best to stay busy, plan for a life without her, GAL and everything else we are supposed to do, but I miss her so much it hurts. No wonder I turned a blind eye to her EA and likely PA with her boss for so many years. No wonder I was happy for her crumbs. At this moment, I would take those crumbs like a pathetic little dog.
I will find strength later in the day, like I almost always do. I just had to get my feelings out somewhere safe.
