This is truly something that I try to do. But when I ask God to take care of XH, to help him face his demons, I feel as if I am whining. I should be thanking God for all his blessings instead of asking for newer and better things.

I don't know if this is a hang up from childhood or what. Anyone with suggestions? I know my XH is full to the brim of demons. When I CAN get him to look at me, it's not even his eyes looking back. Honestly.

ME: 54
Him: 51
M: 20 years T: 21 years
OW/New wife: 36
Sons & Daughters: 7 (ages 24-36)
Bomb: March 4, 2010
He Filed: April 28, 2010
I Contested: May 1, 2010
Standing Down: 11/24/10
Divorced : 05/04/2011