Another New Day 3

[islander]

I am still feeling pretty good. I am not obsessing about what W is doing, it does not matter right now. I am going to start taking care of me. And I mean that. I am starting to really realize that I am a lot stronger than what I give myself credit for. I remember several months ago when I was certain I could not live in our house with out her. Now, I think that the best decision I have made so far was TO stay on our house, MY house now. I am making it mine. I lived alone before, I can do it again.

I had a lot that I was going to right, but after reading up on everybody's sitchs and responding to a few, I am beat. I slept for 3 hours last night, and worked 15 hours today, picked up my D from in-laws tonight, and she is sick so no school tomorrow. I put her to bed and cleaned for a little bit, and now I am going to sit on the couch bf I go to bed.

I will say that I think that I am finally detaching and ready to start DB for real. I don't think I fully trusted it bf, but now I see that I have only been wasting time. Hopefully it is not to late for my M. I am not giving up, but if it is, I know now that I will be ok.