Power of Prayer...........This is Worth the Read!

[glamgirl]

All I can say is God is simply amazing. I have been through much with my h just like everyone else. My message is not necessarily how I got here, but what happened after I was here. I stood for my marriage for 3 years before my h finally came home. I was led by God and my heart for standing and it wasn’t always an easy walk. Here is what has transpired in the last year. Hang onto your seat because it is an amazing story about standing and having faith in God.

In April of 2010 God told me to stop praying for my h to return, but to pray for his salvation and to cast out demons. Now I knew nothing about casting out demons so I looked it up online and had a plan in place for doing such. I prayed and asked God for his direction and guidance and he gave me the names of the demons to cast out of my h. Well I did as I was asked by God and I got really sick. My voice was taken and I was in bed for a few days. I finally got well after a few weeks and thought the whole timing of my sickness was rather odd. I decided to give it a try again and continued to cast out demons from my h. Well, I got really sick again. My voice was attacked and I spent the next few days in bed and was finally healed once again a few weeks later. First time, could question if it was coincidence or what. Second time, no way. I was being attacked by the enemy. I was a good steward and did what my God asked of me. Now I really at this point was not into the marriage any longer. I really wanted to file, but felt that something was holding me back. Well in walks my h May of 2010 about 3 weeks after I cast out demons from him and he was home. Praise God I just witnessed a miracle and the casting out of demons.

Now, 2010 was a very rough year for us. I wasn’t really into rebuilding the marriage. I was carrying hatred, anger, resentment, disappointment you name it against my h. Every time I possibly could I let my h know what I really thought of him. I didn’t hold back. I even told him how much I hated him. Well obviously my h had enough and went back to OW in January of 2011. I personally could care less. I let my h know that I was filing and to get out of my life and stay out. We communicated infrequently and our relationship was cordial at best. I wasn’t sure where my future was headed but I didn’t see my h in it any longer. Then I was texting with my niece and talking about how I was full of resentment, anger and bitterness. She started texting me how poisonous this was for my soul and that I needed to let this go. I agreed, but had no idea how to do that. At that moment I prayed for God to help me. All of a sudden I dropped to the floor and started sobbing like a baby. That day God cleansed my soul from all the hurts, wrongs, resentment, anger etc that had consumed my life for so long even through my childhood. I felt so awesome inside. I was a new person. I immediately had to let my h know that I forgave him. Now that didn’t’ mean I wanted him to return, it meant that I needed to forgive him for myself. The forgiveness was immediate. Now my h didn’t exactly warm up to me or believe that I had forgiven him. He needed to see it to believe it. I didn’t blame him since I did treat him badly the past year. It didn’t matter I needed to forgive him and move forward. I also for the first time could say the name of my h’s OW. I forgave her too. I just wanted to be the best person I could be for God and knew my life was going to be ok and I was going in a different direction.

Now I wasn’t exactly thinking we were getting back together, in fact we were working towards next steps and how to handle everything . Well in walks h 1 week ago and he was home again. Now I certainly wasn’t into having my h go back and forth and back and forth with OW. This wasn’t going to be happening again and again. Now God knew what was on my heart. I prayed to God and said I can’t do this God I can’t. I can’t be with my h and have him going back and forth with OW. In my mind, I knew for whatever reason my h couldn’t completely let go of OW. I told God I need to end this marriage. Well God had me pray Saturday evening for breaking of a soul tie with my h and OW. I looked up soul ties on the internet and I prayed that this soul tie would be broken forever. God also had me pray for OW. I wasn’t sure what, so I prayed again this soul tie would be broken for good. Also peace came to mind, so I prayed that she would have peace and that she would find someone else to be with. This was actually a liberating moment for me.

What happened next would forever change my life. This past Sunday h received news that OW had passed away, 6 hours after I prayed for her. She was younger than my h and so this was very unexpected. We don’t really know the final cause of death, but I guess it really doesn’t matter anyway. I believe this was divine intervention and God allowed this to happen. I can only hope that she found God in her last hour of life.

I feel saddened that her life ended with such a short time on this earth, but with these turn of events there has been a huge shift in my relationship with my h. We are dedicated and committed to healing our marriage and putting our family back together. H and I are on fire for God and are allowing God to lead our lives. I couldn’t feel better about my direction and place on this earth. I have peace about our marriage and am hopeful for the first time we can actually make it work. My h is doing great. It’s as if a burden has been lifted from his shoulders and the depression that consumed him for the past 4 years has simply disappeared. It’s as if he is a new person. I personally think the evil spirits that consumed my h for so long died right along with OW. I don’t even have the words to describe our life now. God knew exactly what we needed to restore our marriage.

This post isn’t about what anyone else should be doing, but a testament of the power of prayer. My heart goes out to all of you that find yourself on this board. It isn’t by any means an easy walk. I thank God every day that he was walking this journey with me. I couldn’t have survived it without him.

Praise God he is an awesome God.

God Bless!