What to do next

[JustStunned]

Journaling: The half empty closet is a shock each time I look at it. I think I will expand into the space. I need to sort through clothes I no longer wear and should either donate or dispose of. I can use some of the empty space for that and then there is the camouflage stored in the basement. I now have space in the closet for it also.

I am feeling pretty numb now. This is recognizable. I am internalizing and suppressing emotions I should be expressing. I need to PT more and get more actively involved elsewhere (GAL) to slowly process the next cycle of emotions. I have grieved before. I am concerned about going from numb to depressed. It has happened before It is not in keeping with the finest traditions. So if in a few weeks or months I am peeing in my wheaties bemoaning my fate someone please copy and post this back to me. I know what I need to do to deal with this, just help me maintain motivation.

I looked the inventory list over. W was pretty stressed writing it out and some of the notes make little sense to me. Her handwriting is normally more legible to more people than mine is. The list needs to be written over or entered into a spreadsheet. For the L’s I have agreed to assign values to the items. I don’t know when I’ll get it done. Doubtless I need to contact W to clarify some of her notes. I am doing this and contacting realtors to have some control of and input to the process.

I don’t know if I posted this before or not. The last realtor thinks we are seriously underwater and recommends a short sale. I have just communicated this to my L.

This weekend and next week I will travel for business. My employer has been allowing me to stay put thus far, but this is travel I need to accomplish. The change of scene and focus will do me good. The dog gets boarded for the first few days then our daughter will watch him. I have not told W about this travel. There is a little concern she might back a truck up and begin loading it while I am gone. I have spoken with my L regarding this travel and he perceives no reason not to accomplish it. I am glad I did not have to explain to colleagues why I could not meet with them.

I should look to the bright side, after all W unloaded on Jan 1, stating she would file that week and it is now almost the middle of May and we are still composing the paperwork.

Goal 1, dial down the emotions. Accomplished
Goal 2, slow the process to D, Accomplished
Goal 3, find constructive ways to occupy myself, Accomplished but need more.
Goal 4, find an amicable way to part company. In process.
Goal 5, retain the family house and property, TBD
Goal 6, maintain contact and friendly relationship with extended family. In process