The big punch

[Redo]

25: As for for my childhood issues and how they controlled my adult life, I am going to lot of meetup groups on anxiety disorder and others just so i can learn and figure out how to improve my life. This is not part of my GAL activities, but i do attend them.

Meds: Nope, i never depended on meds to help me. What made it worse was that wife kept asking why i was not getting better 2 weeks after taking them. I know that she too was stressing out on what was happenning to our relationship. That is why i think this break that i got is good. I am using this time wisely now.

When do you think you can assume the responsibility for your life? At what age do you believe you should be accountable for what happens? Finally, and most importantly, What are you going to DO, now that you realize how off base your perspective was? IOW, How are you changing?

A week after my wife threw the bomb while i was visiting india, i sat down and wrote down what i felt were my contributions. And boy there were a lot. Then i read them and made a group of which of those i should start addressing and how. I have assumed responsibility for my behavior in my marriage. I am changing by taking each day right now as a test to see how i am behaving an tweaking my behavior.