except she is still placating your with words, trying to keep you as plan B
Holy Smokes Michelle you are the third person to tell me this, would it surprise you that the other were also women? Prob not.
25, Cat, and you have been driving this home for a few days now. Such a simple concept really, but it absolutely comes down to actions and not words. While she appears to struggle she continues to move forward.
Very Well..........
My objective is clear.........
To be honest with you I am not sure why I am still swimming in circles here. The outcome is very clear.
Why do I look over my shoulder?
I have no idea!
Actions speak louder than words.
I wonder if I'm in love, not with X, but with the IDEA of being in love.
I imagine that answer will come with time.
The irony of having to let go of someone you love is that it takes a lot of love to be able let go of someone.
Problems occur when I avoid the grieving process and try to cling to something that has died. At the very least, the inability to let go will keep me stuck in the past and I won't really be living my life. It is natural to grieve for a period and just as natural to eventually let go. When that will happen is anybody's guess. I wish I knew!!!
In order to fully accept my divorce and move on, I need to understand what happened and acknowledging the part I played. It’s important to understand how the choices I made affected the relationship. Learning from my mistakes is the key to not repeating them.
I believe I have done this and it still carries A LOT of guilt!
I am happy because I am growing daily and I honestly don't know where the limit lies. To be certain, every day there can be a revelation or a new discovery. I treasure the memory of the past misfortunes. It has added more to my bank of fortitude.
Going forward I will cut back the contact quite a bit although right now I don't call at all or reach out to her in anyway.
I believe the only way for me to heal is to move in the opposite direction.
My inability to heal and accept the end lies in my constant contact and allowing myself to pay more attention to her words than I do her actions.
