Tad I have been keeping up, just haven't posted. I don't remember if I ever told you but the best thing my xh ever did for me was get a "no contact order" against me. That forced me to stay away.....no contact any anyway! Up until that point he was my ...FIX! I thought I could not live without him. At one point during one of his so called dates he was on, called his cell and actually asked him to please just speak to me for awhile. I have panic attacks to make things worse and xh was whom relied on to talk me out of them. Imagine how desperate I sounded to him. When I was ordered to stay away from him, no phone contact, not even email, I thought hat would b he end of me....BUT guess what....wasn't! It was the best thing that could have happened for me. It made me stop depending on him. He was also my drug and I went thru withdraws. If if he was a bandaid, I was forced to remove him quickly instead of slowly. As for my marriage it was too little too late. With that said.....please listen and remove yourself now before it's too late for you. It will not only help you get thru this faster but may help save your marriage too. Tad without you in the picture she will have no one to point a finger at. Let her do her thing with or without om....it really doesn't matter, right now if it wasnt him, it would be another in m opinion. She is on a high. Trying to reclaim her youth, she is NOT woman you married so please don't expect nothing from her. As far as your moods....it has been over 2 yrs and I still miss my family. For the longest time I would be angry, then I would feel sorry for him. It goes and comes. To make things worse, my son decided this was my fault I guess because he lives with his dad and refuses to talk to me. I love him with all my heart and I am letting him do what he wants. I wanted to also say this to you about fb. You said your ex reads your page right? Well if I was her and read some of the stuff that lady is writing on there I would think it was an attempt to make me jealous...whether it is or isn't. She could look at that as you still holding on. Just a thought. Don't give her ammo. It is prb a good suggestion to step away from her completely. Let her wonder BUT mostly give yourself a break from the ride. It's a hard thing to do, believe me I know! Tad, as the say, you can't miss what is right in front of you! Let her miss you. She loves you, that's what makes her crazy!
