Am I on the right track?

[NEmoose43]

Well, I am in such a different state of mind tonight compared to last night. I am not sitting here wondering, I'm not sad, I feel very calm and it really surprises me. I can't get over the feeling I had when I woke up this morning. Somehow I knew where she was. I was up and dressed and in my car within 5 minutes, and I don't know how the thought was in my head when I opened my eyes.

And guess what, W got in touch with me again this evening. Maybe it was the guilt, I don't know. She wanted to let me know that she didn't think going to the concert this Saturday together was a good idea, and I agreed. Told her our friends who were going had also pulled out so I'd probably just give someone the tickets. Honestly, it was a completely normal conversation. And then she asked me if I was ok and I said I really was. Didn't get into R talk, didn't ask for anything...but I did say that I hoped she knew that her staying at OM's house was absolutely unacceptable to me. She said "H, I know, and I'm sorry. I stayed in a guest room, and I know that doesn't make it any better."

Meh...I don't even know what to think about that. All I know is that this sounds like a very deeply conflicted woman.

We left it with her getting in touch sometime on Saturday to let me know what the Mother's Day plans are. She asked me if I was going to leave her alone to concentrate on finals, and I said of course, and good luck. And that was it.

A good friend of mine who knows the whole story said to me tonight "Moose, you are being more patient right now than I would ever be. I just don't understand how she can't see how much you love her right now." Yup, I don't get it either.

But I can't make her choose. I can only wait and hope, and that's what I'm going to do.