The big punch

[25yearsmlc]

[quote=25yearsmlc][quote=mykarma]Journaling...



I meant it would be interesting to see her reaction. Not that i would wait around to see her reaction. See all this time, wife knew that i'd still do everything to please her. This is a clear 180 from me.
GALing: Yup, hanging out more with my bachelor colleagues at work and going out with them. Joined a cycle club near my home so i can exercise with the group. I am preparing for GRE so that next year i can apply for Phd program. That is a long term goal. Yup and i am exercising everyday and loving it. Also signed up for the local food charities volunteering program. Also planning on teaching kids some science/math at my local temple.

Sound like great GAL things. Good for you!! As for the "indians not believing in T..." well, is that some requirement for you to agree with?

So, you got a diagnosis from a T, then a shrink negated that but said what instead? You implied no diagnosis but, Hey, the bottom line is that your anxieties ARE problematic for you. Why'd you stop the meds? Did they help? Who cares what others think your problems are or are not?
YOU KNOW THE ANXIETY ISN'T GOOD FOR YOU. That's what matters, that's what you KNOW.

I just wish you could stop wringing your hands impotently thinking you are stuck with your "issues, can't change, don't know how, am too weak..." no matter what it costs you.

A lot of the tone of your posts hammers the point that you "tried this and that" and "it didn't work" "THEY didn't fix you" and so you are STUCK...

I don't buy it. YOU ARE ABDICATING YOUR LIFE AND HAPPINESS AND HANDING IT OVER TO OTHERS TO FIX YOU, and It's the lazy way out. You "can't help it" and you "tried"...nope, You have NOT done the DB program for more than a day. It's not others job to fix you and they can't "fix" you anyhow! Only YOU can.
Is it that you don't understand it?

What is stopping you from being stronger and not caring about others' opinions? I can't keep hammering the same thing 199 times. You need some help. You're making small steps forward but there's nothing wrong with getting help. And making that drive to see your d!