I have had a few of those moments lately myself. I am so afraid that I am falling out of love with him, even though I dont want to.I want to stand for my M, but it is harder for me this 3rd time my H left, as I am not as hopefull. All the rejection and hurt and lies and deciet and withdrawl are starting to wear away my trust and respect and deep seeded love I used to feel for him.
Unfortunately I am feeling angry that he did it again, and I know that anger will not help me. I think the anger is over trumping the love right now that I used to feel for my H. for the first time in 4 years, I am actually starting to think I may be better off with out him, its scarey to me.
In your sitch, you have been through a lot and it is probably God sending you a message (as Ilikemenow said above). Dont worry about those feelings, they are scarey - but in the long run for the best - I assume. It is ok to be sad, you have lost someone near and dear to you like no other. Let the emotions run there course. TIPPER
