Zero, it is not about me not caring about him, as I will have an unconditional love for him the rest of my life. It is him being dead inside for me. While I am in agony, he is almost ecstatic about his new life to come. I will miss him with my entire being and soul, and to him I make his skin crawl and he can't wait to get our dissolution over with.
I am a beautiful person inside and out with so many friends and loved ones. I feel that so many people would be honored to have me as a wife (not that I haven't made some bad choices that have hurt my H over the years)It is just the one person that I want most to love me in this world, doesn't. Not only that, he doesn't seem to care at all about me, again, like he will be able to walk away with a peace. Seems so unfair.
I know I will have to stop the pity party at some time.
