Digging Through Old Email

[AntoniaB]

Know what one of the most cathartic, most intelligent things I did was? I deleted all old emails in one fell swoop without looking at them. I was changing internet providers and tried initially to figure out how to forward everything. There were thousands of sent emails, something like 4000, that covered many, many years of correspondence, long before there were any signs of XH's MLC. I was very tempted to keep even those to go back and read. Then I sat there and I said just do it. Delete all. It took courage but I did it. Then I deleted them all out of the trash.

Those emails were a type of "drug". I removed the temptation by destroying them. I have never regretted that decision.

MHL is right. You are withdrawing from her and it's terribly painful. But you have to take steps to remove the temptations to have even those indirect connections. I'm glad to hear you deleted the email. Your next task is to not even read the next one you happen to find :-)