Moose,

One day at a time is definitely the mantra that we all have to keep! It's just very strange to me that he went out of his way to walk me around the whole store to introduce me as his wife. He still wears his wedding ring and makes long term plans about the house and those things, but he is still in a R with OW. It makes me want to scream most of the time.

I guess confusion is good because I think it means that they are just not sure that being out of the marriage is exactly what they want. However, just as I said yesterday, I can't control him and I can't read his mind. Every time I try to do either of those things...it blows up in my face.

It still hurts when I see that he is having conversations with her, but it's just one of those things that I have to accept. What I don't have to accept is being so available to him and being there every time he needs something or wants me for something. It's just hard to find the line between being a doormat and encouraging reconciliation. Ah...the joys of being separated smile


Me: 31
H: 30
Kids: D9
Together almost 12 years
Married almost 5 years
EA began: 8/10
Separated: 3/11