The Rollercoaster Ride......2

[Lorie1964]

Tad,

I have been keeping up on your sitch and I am so sorry you are going through this. I have posted a couple of times to you, one of which I told you my H is a radio man too.

Anywhoo, I was able to detach though much prayer, crying, pain and self reflection. I have truly left my marriage and my H at the feet of Christ. I know that God has a plan for me and I just have to leave it up to Him.

During my self reflection I have come to realize I was not a bad wife, not the one my H describes. I was a loving, caring and good wife. I am not perfect, but neither was he. We never argued and always sat and discussed problems. What I realize now, is his unhappiness is really his own issues, not mine. I have to let him go and my love for him is unconditional. I love him enough to let go and believe in God enough that if it is meant to be, then H will come back. I believe this with my whole being. I also have come to terms with facing the fears and not allow the fear to rule my life. I am and you are strong enough to survive this, not let fear rule us.

Things I am doing is:
Working on projects around the house for possible sale.
Packing up all H's belongings, yes he left these behind and only took essentials. I am putting the boxes in the basement so that I don't have to look at them.
Spend time with a few friends.
Be the best mom I can be for my daughter.
I pray daily for H and his salvation.
Oh, and I continue daily to look for a new job. I know once I get a job, H will probably file for D. So I am also preparing myself for that day by prayer and daily affirmations that I will make it through that day as well.

I am a good person, good friend, good mom, good daughter and yes, a good wife.

Tad, though I don't know you personally, from what I have read you too are a good person, good friend, good dad, and yes, a good husband. Remind yourself of those things everyday.

May God Bless you and keep you in his grace always!