Anniversary happened. It went just like I expected but it still hurts terribly.
In the morning I gave a card, and said happy anniversary. She said quietly "same to you". When I got home, she didn't even look up from the computer, and barely said 5 words to me all evening. Of course she spent tons of time emailing on her damn phone. She got up and went to bed at 930. I slept on the couch. I didn't want to be anywhere near her. Did not say good morning to her, goodbye, anything. I took off my ring. I am DONE.
I am now convinced it's over. I know it sounds defeatist, but I am seeing it more as realist. I appreciate the support of the board over these last months, but it's over, plain and simple. There is so little left to build on, the trust is gone, and clearly any semblance of caring, love, or interest on one side is gone.
I am dropping the rope completely, that's it. If we were back at home, then I would probably have kicked her out of the house. But as it stands my marriage is over. I am at my limit. I just can't take any more of this. I just don't see how there is any reason to have ANY hope left.
