Won't stand for a broken family

[Timetotry]

Thanks NeMoose, good perspective that I have to keep in mind.

Journaling:

He text me a few times today seeing how I was/checking in. He told me he took the day off and decided to get the puppy last night. He was taking D3 and S to dinner so he came over afterschool with the dog. He kept referring to it as 'honey' or the name he gave "Faith" (and he is so non-religious), I swear the more I watched him, the less attracted I was to him today. I am just seeing how lost he really is and I feel bad for him and don't see myself caring how I can help. Its as if I am detaching in a way I think. Yet, when they left, I still cried. I cried for my old husband that I miss so bad.

They came back and he said nothing much. Yet, an hour later starts texting again. Just dumb texts though. I said at one point try to get some sleep (cause he doesn't since the bomb) and he says he will try but he has a kid to take care of now. Stupid. Just trying to find ways to fill the void.

I swear I'm married a 17 year old and I respond thinking its a way to connect for him that seems to be working but I am beginning to wonder how much its working. Sure, he is saying something but its pointless stuff.


H:41
W:44
D1:18
D2:16
S:12
D3:7
T:20
M:18
Bomb:1/5/11
Sep:2/18/11
No D filed yet; just threats

“It is what YOU make it”!