I need someone to hollar back at me... is it just me? I am married to a Good man... God fearing, great with my son (we don't have kids together) and hard working. Sounds good right? I met this man in 1997. I had been divorced for 9 years from my first husband who slept with everything and anybody. I have two children from my first marriage. Now 25 and 15. The 25 lives away from home and the 15 is home with me and my now husband. Before I got re-married to my 2nd husband we shared a list of things that is at the outmost importance in our marriage. I told him I need a man who would enjoy socializing with me as I work in the political field, and one who loves to travel and go places, and who is serious about working on his health because I am serious about my health and I an active. I also said it was very important to have a man that loves to go to church. He said he agrees and that he wants these things as well. So, we got engaged after three months and married after a year. Within that year we took nearby trips (within 200 miles) and did some outings. It was fun! Then after the marriage, one month later, everything changed. He broke everyone one of the rules. I found myself always going places alone, and traveling alone even to Europe. It wasn't until four years later I found out he is afraid to fly. He never mentioned it, he just kept making excuses for not traveling. Months and years went by and every week I argued the same four points over and over again. Socializing with me... travel with me... exercise with me... go to church with me.... Its five years later and things has only gotten worst. Oh, along the way he kept saying he will work on these things and I kept giving him time and chances. I kept hoping and he kept making promises. All he wants to do is sit at home and watch t.v. I love the outdoors. I love to go hiking! I love walking. I love traveling. Now, I find my self home and not excersing or hiking and barely traveling. I have come to the end of my rope. The biggest problem for me is after two years of marriage and all that time of arguing about how he should work on his health, my husband has now developed Diabetes and High blood pressure. He is on meds. and now the meds has affected him sexually. That started three years ago. He is very very sensitive and now whenever he attempts to make love he becomes the one minute man. I have went thru some major health changes. I had weight loss surgery to help me with my weight. My husband is 350 lbs and 6'5. He kept saying he will work on his weight but in the last five years nothing has happened but a decreasing health. I have always been a faithful women but lately I have found myself wanting to look elsewhere for satisfaction. I can't take it anymore. I am so frustrated. My husband does not really understand how I feel. After his one minute love session, that is it for the night. I am left without. The next day he is singing and dancing,and I am dying in side from frustration. He says he understands but I doubt it. I have met many men who are wanting to be with me and sexually go there. I am trying to be patient with this but it is killing me. I said maybe I need to take a break from my husband, but I fear the confusion this will cause in my son's life. Help! I can't take this anymore.
