He's not gone yet but says his feelings are gone

[Hurt-but-Hopeful]

So things have definitely improved. After another weekend of H being withdrawn and obviously thinking about things, he told me Sunday night that he wants to stay and try to make it work. He said he knows it will take a while, and we'll do therapy together and alone, but he wants to see where it goes. He still doesn't feel attraction towards me yet. But, there is hope and lots of it. I still feel like I don't have a good idea of what it is he is looking in our marriage. What it is that made him disillusioned in the first place. My IC (who also does our MC) agreed with me that there is a degree of MLC going on with H. I want things to instantaneously be great again. But I know I have to be patient and keep doing things for me, and working on my issues as well. He says that he knows not all of this was because of me (and my depression) but that a large part of it is.

I'm just not sure how to act now. He's happy to talk about things at any time. I just don't know if I can run up to him and give him a kiss, because I'll still be worried that he's not attracted to me and won't want it, or it will feel uncomfortable. Not that he's acted this way. As a matter of fact, after we talked Sun night he came up and hugged me and kissed me tenderly.

I'm happy but still so sad. I want to start the work NOW and make progress. Patience isn't my strong suit.