Journaling a little bit tonight. I have been dark for about 3 weeks now. There has been very little noticeable signs of improvement as far as the R goes, but my life has gotten much better. I feel happier than I have in weeks, maybe months. This time alone has really helped sort some things out in my head. I have been able to spend time with old friends that I haven't seen in years. She came by and took our pet last week, that was the one thing that was tieing me to the house. At first, it hit me a little hard bc I knew she had no intent of returning home anytime soon, but now, I realize that it has taken one responsibility off my back. It has also allowed me to travel and not worry about taking care of anything else other than me. I still have not detached completely, I know that will take some time. I may be a fool bc I know that I will love her until the day I die no matter what happens, but I have also accepted either outcome as a possibility. I know that I will be fine in the end and I will emerge from this a better person. I really appreciate this forum and all the great people on it. I'm glad to see that I am not alone on this journey. The support helps immensely.
