The Roller Coaster Keeps on Rolling

[FellOnBlackDays]

Denver,
Your frustration and aggravation is completely normal. Don't fell bad about feeling that way. It does seem to me also that she is kind of sitting the fence to your detriment. I guess only you can decide how long you are willing to let that continue. Not to mention, the two of you were moving pretty fast toward something, so you have to expect she is going to pull back a bit. Only you know how long you are willing to put up with this. Only you.

As for the lease thing, don't worry about this. You are going to set yourself up for a fall again if you try to use your logic and reason with her decisions. I did the same thing back in December. I heard my W had to move out of her place and I got all excited. I heard she had no where to go and I thought this might mean she was coming home. I was wrong and I was devastated. Don't set yourself up like that. OK?

I wish I had some cool words of wisdom, but I don't. I have pretty much left the forum because I can no longer visit my sitch night after night. It is just too much. I posted an update tonight for the first time in a week. I too am very, very emotionally tired. There is a part of me that wants to blow the whole thing up with some stupid action just so that it can all be "really over." Today, it was 240 days since she moved out. I am starting to forget what it was like to have her here. Life without her is becoming the norm and it scares the sh*t out of me. Because if it is happening to me as the LBS, you know it is happening to her in a bigger and more profound way as the WAS. I believe my journey is coming to an end. But, you have some much more to fight for. Don't give up. Not yet. You and 2step are both dealing with WAS's that are confused. That means there is still hope. My WAS is not confused. She knows what she wants and she is going to get it.

Take care!

FOBD