OnMyWay: to who knows where?

[AJM80]

OMW - I've found that there is sort of a post vacation hangover when you come back to the uncertainty and issues of your relationship. I've also noticed that as I got through some of my early goals, I had forgotten to make new, next step goals. Sounds like you're putting a lot of weight on this week's counseling session - maybe make some smaller goals.

I also agree with your description of part of your relationship dying everytime someone else finds out. I've stopped mostly telling people, H still does sometimes and it really hurts me when it gets back to me.

I'd let the TV thing go, unless you see the cancelation policy and aren't ready to commit to it long term. if she did a 2 yr deal or something, you may not live there, right?

Coach Chuck told me that it is important not to make it easier/cheapen yourself for WAS - she needs to face the full impact of what she did and decide that you are worth it, without any discounts by you to entice her back. Keep working on yourself so that she's more attracted, keep being nice (not pursuing, but nice like you'd be to random people you know), and occassionally do your 180s - be more appreciative, or thoughtful, or open, etc - whatever you've identified.