(((((kat)))))(((((mishka))))) Yeah.... that would be a valid question. I really enjoy being with her. But... well, I think it's done now.
We saw each other a lot this weekend, and things were going in a really positive direction... but then somehow the question came up about whether I would have wanted to ask her out if I just saw her on the street. She's a little overweight, and I have to say, I would not have thought she was my "type" until I met her. So, I said something about probably not, but I was wrong, what I thought I was looking for was wasn't what I really wanted. And I mean it. She has this smile, laugh, and she's just fun to be with. But, she decided that meant that I was settling, and that I want a Barbie. If I had thought a bit before opening my mouth, I would have known that was a bad answer, but, well, I didn't. So, now, I think she is done.
Right now I am pretty broken up, because five minutes before I told her I would never hurt her, and then, well, I did. I'm not sure I agree with her reaction, at the same time, they are her feelings, so I don't get a vote there.
Anyway, feeling pretty crappy right now. Losing the relationship hurts, but hurting her hurts even more.
