H still continues to make promises. He says he wants to change his life and be a better person, husband, father, etc. I suggested he read "Awakening at Midlife" and he borrowed my copy yesterday. I told him he has a lot of changing to do if I would ever even want him back. I will no longer accept him as he was. And even if he changes I still may not be able to forgive his infedility or trust him again.

The good news is that God (it must be Him) is filling me with an undescribable peace. I am ok. I am strong. I am not worried about tomorrow anymore. I do not want this feeling to ever go away.

Me- 35
H- 36
M- 7
T- 9
D3, D5
Bomb 1/21/11
EA/PA began 12/10?
Discovered A 3/2/11
S- 3/3/11
OW gone- 4/27/11
H says he wants to reconcile, but lacking action