Cat and jack, My fears: * losing my best friend, the love of my life. *Failing at Marriage which I hold very highly as priority. *Disappointing family and friends and God. *Financial fears, as I am currently on unemployment and have no idea what way to turn yet. *taking care of my house alone, I was in a condo last time he left me and everything like garbage, lawns, and upkeep were done for me with my fees paid. Now I am in a house that was built in 1837 and is falling apart. *My fairy tail is ending/over. *having to go through this all over again, I dont think my health can handle it, allready I have lost 7 pounds in 3 days and I was only at 115pnds to begin with. I shake , I sweat, I cant sleep. * I am afraid he will find another women or go back to the strip clubs, it hurts to think he did it last time, why not again.
jack, I agree that at first, last time he returned in '08 -he wasnt peicing with me. but the 2nd year '09 I felt like he really was and I felt like things were back to normal again. Then this third year together, I see know he was not piecing and went back to old ways.
I am going to try to be tougher now like you said. Already H has text me that he wants to come get his stuff, I said: "Ok, but just take your personal belongings and nothing shared".... Cuz last time he took my dog with him and several shared items. He agreed and said just taking the neccesities. Thanks, TIPPER
