Thanks JS. Really appreciate your feedback.

I think 25 has provided really good 2x4's.
Right now i am doing my stuff, but still complain (in these forums) or get depressed (at home by myself). But if i understood her correctly, the key is 'fake it till you make it'. Means that i need to fake it, being strong, even when i am by myself. I guess only then being strong may become second nature to me. Thats what i did with my dad. 'Faked it'....

BITS
M 38
W 36
D 7
Married 15 yrs
W left for 6 months in 2009
W Filed for D 01/03/11
piecing now...