The big punch

[Redo]

25: Yup, adjusting to change has always been my weak point. As i said, this situation has exposed one big issue "fear". Sometimes i wonder if i get down because i love my family or because i am scared of change. Maybe it is the latter. I am working on overcoming. One way is to attack my issues head on. As i said, last week tested my strength. I was dealing with my divorce and then i hear from back home that my dad was admitted to the hospital with chest pains. News just seemed to get worse each day because they then found that he had some internal bleeding. Normally i'd be a mess. Not this time. I made sure i was in constant contact with my mom and dad. I kept re-assuring my mom and also made sure i conveyed my gratitude to all those who were helping out my parents. Now my dad is out of the woods. I feel glad that i actually for once was able to manage these issues without freaking out.

Journalling...

So finally they found that the blood thinners my dad was taking was causing all the issues of him having internal bleeding, shortness of breath, loosing weight and iron in his blood. Finally relieved when they sent him home yesterday. He too was surprised that i did not freak out. I told him that yup, inside i was scared, but i could not show it out. I felt good. Now i guess onto the pending issue at hand...

This weekend was moving watching marathon. So glad for netflix, I ended up watching about 12 foreign movies this weekend. Brain overload

Weather was divine. So i went out on a 2 hour cycle ride on saturday and spent sunday in my garage workshop.

From last week, i have been talking to my daughter everyday in the evening. I think it is much better is she hears me everyday. Wife did not sound too happy about it. But hey that's not something i can control. I am just so happy i can talk to my angel everyday.