Vin - thanks for your post - I am glad others are receiving encouragement from my sitch. Although I have not been the best of church goers (I only go to church on special occasions) I was raised a christain and I do pray and I do believe that He will guide me in my decisions. C is also like me in that she only goes to church on Special occasions but she also belives in Him and I believe that He will guide her as well - Right now I have to have patience to let her work through her emotional problems at her own pace.
As to the kissing on the cheek - that is an unconscious 180 for me in that always when I was going to give her a peck kiss it would be on the lips. I guess it is detatching and it will give her something to think about and when she does come around more and start to make a commentment more then I will automatically go back to my peck on the lips.
after breakfast and a short IM in the morning I had no contact w/ C. I will continue to give her space as she needs it, However, when I give her space, that means that I also have space to work on me and the more I work on me the more I realize I really don't need her. (this does not mean that I don't want her though)
I have a training session with my Personal Physical Trainer tonight and she said she might drop by then. if she does not drop by tonight and since she is going out of town with a bunch of girlfriends, I will not be able to see her til she gets back in town on Sunday night (if I even see her then and as of now there are no plans for that either)
This reminds me of another point on another thing though, When we were talking yesterday morning about our working out and how it was starting to show I reminded her that by my Birthday (in about 6 weeks) that it really should show and she commented that that would be just in time for the start of Summer, and I said, "that is the point"
So my goal for now is to continue to work on me and to do more things that will put me in with a crowd of people (like working out but not like going to single bars) - to keep reminding her through my actions that I might not always be around for her unless she makes the decision to.
