The problem is that we can't try to convince them to come back and experience all these changes, because that only pushes them further away.
Instead, I'm just blogging about it. I know she still reads my blog, so it's a way to show the changes without showing them DIRECTLY TO HER, as it were
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progress gives WAW relapse it threatens their so called hard made decisions. The harder they run after a relapse the more likely they will return. Hopefully she'll realize how silly this is.
Hopefully.
Maybe hopefully.
Nah, hopefully. I still want her back, but... man, I hate to admit it, but it is actually SO NICE not having to feel like every action is critical, like every reaction to something happening might be taken the wrong way, like I'm put in impossible-to-win situations every time I walk in my own door.
I miss... who she was. I feel a bit guilty about it, but in only a few days I've come to a sense of relief that who she now is isn't here.
My hope is that who she becomes is a woman I can love again with all my heart. But waking up and thinking "you know what, I do deserve better than this crap" was shocking. At this exact precise moment in time, if I was offered a zero-loss divorce... I weep to say that I would be sorely tempted.
