Another New Day 3

[islander]

I had a little communication with W today via tm about the bills she was paying. She contacted me about one of them and to let me know what she paid. I questioned her about our car ins that is due at the end of the month and she said she didn't know if we would have enough to pay it in full. I pointed out that she went on several small trips and spent the money that WE had set aside for that and our taxes. I also pointed out that I am spending as little as I can and not taking trips anywhere.

She got defensive and said she could just start paying half of the bills if I wanted to start bi!ching at her.

Just bf she sent that tm, I sent her one stating that I did not want to argue, that I was just concerned about our bills. We got each others messages at the same time, and she replied for me not to worry.

I guess I corrected myself at the right time. But I am concerned about our bills. I don't think she is spending as much as she was, but I really don't know.

If she just paid half of tue bills, I couldn't afford mine right now.

My W leaves and now I am still dependent on her, and it seems to make things that much harder to really detach.

Atleast she is making sure the bills get paid RIGHT NOW.

It just adds to my stress. I need to get a job that pays more money, but I don't see that happening anytime soon. I don't feel like much of a man right now when I can't support myself. Doesn't do much for the self esteem.

Like many of us, when we built our house, we based everything on both o our incomes. She just happens to make more then me. Issues I tieless I will have to come to terms and deal with.