For many of us on this forum, this is the hardest, most painful experience of our lives so far. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. We all feel your pain with you. My advice, for what it's worth, is find something to 'save your life'. So far I have done 3 things that have helped me on my way.
1 - Joined a gym and worked out like a madman. When I finished there I went running just to make sure. A lot of the time I cried like a baby but I got it out of my system.
2 - Started yoga classes. I don't know what it was but it lifted so much anxiety & pain from me I was astonished. I felt like a different person
3 - Played some good music, really loud & sang along - really loud. As-per my username, Foo Fighters, Wasted Light saved my life.
Gammy
Me 48 W 49 D19, S17, D14 Together 25yr, Married 22yr Me checked-out July 10, back Sept 10 W checked out Nov 10 Separated Dec 10 ILYBNILWY 2nd Apr 11 We're finished + D bomb 17th Apr 11