I started to read through my two previous threads, but after a while it was simply too much for me and brought back too many memories that I just can't handle right now, while I need to focus on the future.
But.....even by just skimming through, I have answers to what I did wrong.
Big picture: At times, I took the advice of "pros" on here too much to heart. That can be the one major negative aspect of this site. If I had listened to my gut and heart at times, I honestly think things would be very different right now.
As for actions between STBX and I, I can clearly see the mistakes I made.
1. Not showing genuine care and affection and expecting nothing in return.
2. Pushing...pushing...pushing. Not letting STBX take the time she needed. I put my agenda ahead of hers.
3. Refusing to realize just how much OM was affecting her view of our relationship and the depths of their relationship.
4. Taking too much from her when she offered anything. As she has said before "I consume her".
5. Reading into EVERYTHING, expecting and being upset when the expectations were wrong.
I could go on, but I think those were and still are my major errors. I would love to hear what others think, but there is a ton of reading there to get some comprehension of our situation.
The one thing I can definitely say after reading what I did. There was a time when our marriage could have been saved. Wow, that hurts!
