Jack three beans, snowmm, & concerned listener: thanks for your responses, I really apprieciate the help. I dont get a lot of chances to get online anymore, so I have not been able to respond. But I really need your advice more than ever.
Two days ago, my H left me again. Its been three years, two were ok and I thought he was getting better at times, and at least i could deal with the drinking then. But this last year has been nothing but stress about the situation with his drinking. He's at the bars every night.I have also gotten laid off last june, so I am alone all day while he is out running his own roofing & construction business, He doesnt even come home in between work and the bars.
I have been making him dinners and eating alone a lot. I feel like I have gone insane. I have done every thing possible to fight for our Marriage, and he just goes off partying with out me. For a while, I was even going out to the bars to meet him so we would be able to hang together, But after a couple weeks I realized that is just not right and its not who I am. I stopped going to meet him out and now I will only go out with him on the weekends to watch bands or go bowling, ect...
He has said to me: If I stop drinking, then he will too. I dont have a drinking problem, I have an emotional roller coaster problem currently that makes me explode when I do get a few drinks in me. I couldnt believe he even suggested that. Even all my friends laughed when I told them what he said.
I do know that I need to attend al-anon. I am looking into my first meeting this week but they are not open till tommorow. I am scared and I dont want to go through this again. HELP!!!! Thanks, TIPPER
