I agree with the others who have posted on all counts.
Let yourself be angry for now. Get it out of your system. This emotion will come to pass.
Everyday WILL be better than the day before. It really will!
Take peace and comfort in knowing that you are a warm, loving, supportive and wonderful lady. You fought the good fight for your marriage and did do everything you could to fix things. You have no regrets for your stand.
Right now look for the positives in your life. I know they are right under your nose if you are willing to see them. Embrace them. Nurture them.
Nurture you. Eat well, exercise, take up old forgotten hobbies. Get that spring cleaning done. Look for things you can do to divert your thoughts towards the good things in your life.
I know you hurt. I know how you feel. I have been where you are. Heck, I had a super-duper meltdown yesterday over nothing!!!
YOU are a survivor. YOU are deserving of a good life. It's right here waiting for you to grab it.
Pick yourself up by the boot straps and start smiling my friend.
Think about it this way....Do you really want your MLCer XH back with all his baggage....My guess is NO. Let her have the baggage and all the ugly clothes inside!
What goes around, does come around. He is not really happy. He is wearing blinders hiding a false identity. One day he will have to face his choices and when he does, he will then know the truth.
In the meantime you are going to continue to grow and live life to the fullest.
Do something today to splurge on you....
Make today a good day,
Sanderika
ME48/H48MLC T 33y M 28y S16 OW 8/7/05 Bomb 8/16/05 Sep 9/05 H f'd D 10/3/08 D pp'd 1/20/09,7/24/09,12/4/09 D dismissed 2/5/10 H served me D papers again 9/4/10 D dismissed 9/26/11
