Won't stand for a broken family

[Timetotry]

Journaling:

Very twisted day. Met H at D3 softball game and we all had a good time; he coaches and I helped out with batting rounds. He offered to pick me up some lunch and come back to the house. He even sat next to me at the table, not 'his' seat. Then left to shower and came back to get S and D3 for overnite. I went shopping and came home crying. First night ever by myself. There has always been someone in the house, my D2 usually come midnight but she is staying out tonight at a friends. On the phone catching up with my sister for two hours. Seemed boring for a Saturday night but then the twist.

My friend who calls come in as 'private' rang. We were not even speaking of three minutes before I get an H text:

H: Are you ok?
Me: Fine..u?
H:Just checking..seemed like you were not well earlier
Me:In what way?
H:Don't know..but if all good then sleep well
Me: Thanks. Hope you an sleep too. Are you ok?
H: Yup. I'm good..very good day. Nite.

I just thought wow. He always seems to text when I get private calls and I know he accesses the phone log online access. I won't confront but it made me feel so much better because then I know he is watching and thinking and questioning. Its what I need him to do.

Ended up being a good day then afterall and I am ok to be in the house alone tonite!

H:41
W:44
D1:18
D2:16
S:12
D3:7
T:20
M:18
Bomb:1/5/11
Sep:2/18/11
No D filed yet; just threats

“It is what YOU make it”!