I hate the emotional mind *F* my W is doing to me. Last night was a good night. I kept doing me stuff, which involved cooking. My wife said it was cute to see me so inspired by cooking ( made beef bourginon and creme brulee, so not Kd and hot dogs). The thing that I dont get is after dinner I cleaned up put dishes away and sat down on the couch. Read my kids a good night story and the W tucked them into bed. As soon as she was done she said to me that she wanted to just hang out in bed. I said sure then went up to bed. She read a book (not DB like I have suggesgted so many times). While in bed it was like things were back to normal. I laid there and got mad. WTF? She told me that she wanted to leave and not be part of this family and then when it's convient for her she's happy to be comfortable with how things are. Then lights out and she comes over and cuddles with me. Old me would have hated that. New me was so happy that she wanted to be close I just laid there and smiled like a goof. I enjoyed it to myself, but I was a little mad. Why should I let every thing go just because its what I want? My feelings are still hurt and I still feel like Im walking on eggshells. Arrrggghhh. Thanks for letting me vent.....
Advice Please, She was supposed to go on a trip to CA in May. It was a big deal to me because of my insecurities and such. She fought the issue and I eventually said it would be something that would be good for her. She said it would be good for the space that she needed. I had a hard time dealing with a vacation withouht one another but I have kind of come to terms with it. It will be good for me to let her go. Problem is, now the family member she was supposed to go with can't go. She now wants me to go with her. I said ok at first, but now I am not so sure. Its at no cost to me and I really want to go, but I can't forget how hard she fought me to go without me. I said to her that I'm not sure it would be a good time for us to go away together(b/c of where we're at). She says.. " but it might be good, who knows". What would you do in that situation? Thanks for reading and sorry for all the spelling mistakes.
