Mission 25. I Really Mean it this time>

[ninelives]

What this title means is that I am really going to follow the advice of the vets and take emotions out.

I am trying to GAL for me and yes , forgivenss may be one of the things I have to really adress.

I will NEVER forgive the affair, but I must forgive her as a human that made mistakes and will continue to make them and detach from her.

As we speak, son 15 feels really let down because he doenst want to be here tonight , young son has annoying friend over and Oldest son wants to be with hiMOM tonight.

She just called and said that she is soo tired and just wants to be by herself t=onight and that she works next weekdedn as well and that she just want to watch a movei.

Thats all

This is such BS, I am so angry right now but dont want to shoe her.

I calmly said look, he want you tonihgt , Why cant you be with hi.

I DONT UNDERSTASND how she can put OM before her sons feelsing.

I AM AGHAST.

I will not call her .

She did say some things and I will tel you in the next post.

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