Am I on the right track?

[NEmoose43]

Well, things just got worse, and now I'm super suspicious.

W just called from school and told me she was going to stay with her friend at school tonight, that she "just couldn't come home right now after last night". I told her I understood, but then it occurred to me that she didn't bring a change of clothes with her today. I asked her if she had anything and she said she didn't but she just couldn't come home. I said I totally understood, I stayed very upbeat and actually changed the subject to ask how her day went. She talked about some things she had picked up for her mom for Mother's Day and told me about what they'd accomplished studying. We chatted normally for a minute and then I told her I understood again why she wasn't coming back down. Said I knew that she knew how I felt and what I wanted to happen with us, and I was willing to give her whatever space she needed to deal with what she's going through. Finished by saying I hoped she and her friend had a great night and that I'd probably be going to a friends house to watch the UFC fights tonight. She said she was happy I was going out and that she'd try to get in touch before she went to bed.

So now I'm sitting here thinking that she's with OM, and that I drove her to it. It doesn't change my DB strategy, it doesn't change what I want the outcome to be, and it doesn't change what I'm going to do. It just hurts. I know I need to let go, but how is it that someone who acknowledges how much I love her can potentially just walk away from what we've built together. Yeah it's flawed, and so are we, but why can't she see that if she makes the choice to give us another shot that I would never let her down?

I know, I know, I'm asking impossible questions. Just at a really really low point tonight.