I am very sorry to hear about your situation. You are in a very good place and you will find a lot of good help and caring people here. I agree with islander, if you are literally feeling suicidal, please, please get some help ASAP! I think a lot of us agree - it's impossible to tell what's going through the head of a WAS. Your H is not thinking rationally right now. Keep working the 180s and LRT and give it some more time. Work on GAL - if you can get this going it will help tremendously!
